Friday, April 1, 2011

Why me?

Yes yes yes! I love you Lord! More than anything! Everyday I hear Christ asking me, "Lauren, do you love me?" Everyday I reply with, "Yes Lord! I love you! But why do you love me?" Christ has done so much for us. He gave His life for us. Why do we, sinners, deserve His unending and unconditional love? What have I ever done to deserve to be the Apple of His Eye? I am just an ordinary sinful individual. There is nothing special about me. So why does Christ love me so much? Why do I deserve any of the blessings He has bestowed upon me?

This is something that has been on my mind a lot lately. Why me? I've been thinking about my life right now. Why do I deserve such a great education from Whitworth? Why do I deserve such great support from my friends and family around me? Why do I deserve to be a part of Sonshine?! I feel so blessed to be able to serve with all of you!!! I often wonder what God sees in me to give me the opportunity to serve. I am no one. I am just a biology major at Whitworth -- a small Christian school in a city not many people outside the state of Washington have ever heard of. I am just one person yet Christ has blessed me with so many things. What did I do to deserve it over the next person? What about the homeless or the hungry? Why me and not them?

So many questions and I am no where near to finding any answers. But everyday, Christ teaches me something new. I learn from Christ -- what I have learned is to serve and follow Him. If I give it all to God and trust Him and follow Him, I can begin to find my purpose. Everyday I face challenges. Challenges with my schoolwork, with friends, and with my faith. I am blessed to have friends that continue to challenge me in my faith to learn more and dig deeper.

Why me Lord? What have I done? Help me to open my eyes and my heart to you. Help me to find my purpose. Teach me Lord. You have placed all these things in my life for a reason -- help me to see. Help me to understand. I pray that as I continue to grow in your word, that I may continue to share your love with others and to live my life only for you Lord. Amen.

2 comments:

  1. It's such a humbling experience to think about the "why me" questions of our faith. Because, truth is...we don't deserve any of it. But, it is given to us anyways. Because God is a good, just, loving god. Sooo good. :)

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